It's been an awful long while, but I hope you won't get ahead of yourself. I know that I can be overly cautious, but preparation is important. It's... not that I'm nervous, really.
[ Although she holds herself like she is. Too stiff, shoulders and back straight even though her arms are folded and hands pressed tightly to her arms. Eventually, she does remove one, just to emphasize her words when she speaks, adding in vague little movements with her hand. ]
I just think it would be wise to think things through. I'd rather not take the lead, so I would appreciate the company of my friends if that's at all possible. I'm still adjusting and learning from my mistakes. [ It takes a lot for her to admit this. It's a difficult confession because it means accepting her failure earnestly. ] I... am at my best working alongside others, helping to hone a plan rather than direct it myself.
[ It wasn't as difficult as she thought it might be to say that, though she allows an audible sigh to escape her. Subtle, but still out of her control. It's something she's learning to accept and move on from. Everything isn't possible to control and that doesn't have to be a bad thing. ]
I hope that you'll take my request into consideration.